i'll be found.

don't try too hard

don't drop too hard

don't ask why

because what goes around comes around

because they didn't tell you

growing up

is a personal war

its you and you alone

they who came and gone

should be left where they belong

it's just kind of fortunate

that you were there for him when he was there for you

otherwise.

i use to think

its stupid to cry

for the same thing

(maybe a different person)

over and over again

then some song came along

told me

its a luxury

yes tearing is a luxury

feeling is a luxury

happy, hurt

hurt, happy

i tried to fix everyone of them

wishing i could someday fix myself

are we broken?

how broken?

so broken even love

love of any kind

can't put us back together again?

thankyou for sharing this moment

for walking into my life

because of you and you and you and you

i feel that the long road ahead

is not that winding after all

how can you be found

when you aren't once lost?

take me to whimsical land

same scene

laughed like nothing ever happened

"sorry"

its not always too late to apologize

nothing changed when every things changing

the world is relative

so is love

its never easy

for one to be with the other during the hardest times

when you are so versatile when everyone speaks the worst out you

when only she believed in the person she met

i didn't have the courage to listen to my heart

instead, like all others

i live by hearsay

don't be sorry. I am sorry.

maybe another time

but you know me he knows me like i know myself

maybe understanding is not the sprout of love

its just a brutally true realization

that its time to be a better person

where on earth can i find another person

to sleep under the stars with me again

he did

we did

he said he didn't like to be in that foreign place love can't save him, nor does two years time

I want to hold his dear face

cut his throat look into his eyes

its your choice

be a man

don't dare to break her heart

because mine died once when she left

life is not a derivative of wants

its a chain of needs

i still believe

when one day i stopped living for myself

when its time to share the love

we'll all become beautiful

now

lets sit down and talk to the moon

let the owls sleep

let the world go on

and take you with it

but everyone can afford love

tom ford said its not a sin to shower 5 times a day

if you feel helpless, take the time of your life to put on a suit

put on your armor and go fight for something you believe in

then take it off

and immerse yourself in water

maybe in another medium

love will feel lighter

i didn't realize until he said the commitment

that i didn't want any ending like that.

She asked me to choose between fur and a ring

i want something to hold me tight to keep me warm when i feel cold

but love can only bring me the latter

He told me oh so brutally honestly

that he wanted a change, wanted some love, wanted a new start

i almost ripped my heart believing when i realize

thats exactly what i want as well

she said he wouldn't be able to afford what i want but he will try his best

but dear you

he couldn't even give me what he can afford because he felt too weary to try for love

how can i even borrow my heart to someone so poor

in morality

in the end

christmas is here again

last christmas

a family of 5 saved my soul

this year

i will try save the rest of them

為何仍是愛得隱隱作痛

we walked through my past.

its ridiculously funny how the road just unwinds itself tried telling its story in the dark

i didn't hear a thing he said

he didn't say it to me

when you've ran out of words ran out of touch ran out of breath tell me how to tell you whats happening right now right here

silence.

they all thought its the remedy.

i saw how silence killed some love

lets walk when its colder

so when some words do touch my soul, i can shiver it off and pretend its just the cold

its you

because your selfishness is my protection

because you are everything i am not and everything i am trying to get rid of

why still

because my selfishness feeds your guilt

so wrong

because we all want something we both don't want to give.

i wish i didn't know.

some best thing i haven't heard in a while

immersed myself in aquatic medium

maybe i can hear my thoughts better

it used to make me blush the pangs of guilt love shame washing upwards

until tears blur me vision

not any more

this time

i can look him in the eye and say whats on my mind

and then made a silent compromise

walking into a futureless reality

woke up, water dripping down my forelocks

i wrote what i cannot say

anticipated an ending. smiled. ready for whatevers ahead

some other reply

didn't change my mind

but its some best thing i haven't heard in a long time

i didn't come to savour whats said right and done wrong

just in case i wake up to another tomorrow

i had a very wonderful dream

a wandering mind

it was just supposed to be a causal stroll

through those words that once constructed my teeny universe

did words grew less effective

or did my world simply grew bigger

some dreams died, to make way for life

its easier that way.

though i am quite wrong. because everything only gets a little more difficult.

to smile to cry

everything seem to matter a little less

because there are others who meant much more

sometimes, just a very minute bit of moment

i wonder what really happened

i felt guilty for disrupting his world

i had my fair share of fun

and my equally fair share of pain

we are left bruised and confused

of whats awaiting

it would be more beautiful if its simpler

if you delve too deep

you'll just find yourself with a handful of nothingness

so stop where its still sweet and simple

these days

the only thing that still gives me goosebumps

tis the lingering feeling of that embrace

if you need sth to kick start the morning...i am here

Don't look back in anger

and after all, it takes just oasis to bring me back here

a land of memories

of tears in smiles

of pain in the rain

of wrongness stupidity ignorance

but oh how i wish

its as easy to stay foolish

as steve said

last year today

i am perfectly happy typing away alone in this little corner of bliss

blissful because i felt the possibilities of youth

when love is still a luxury and not yet a necessity

at least thats how it felt

beatles are right when they say

yesterday

when he told me we've been there done that and its time to let go

I believed

that no matter how much love how much pain

tried to burn out the flick of youth

time will heal

memories will be replaced

we will eventually forget

the worst and remember the rest

for now

i'll try

to love those who loved me

to forsake those who abused my love

my love,

tell me

how to keep love strong when life gets crazy