...today's the day

too much in my head i need time time a little sleep maybe more sleep to figure out whats THE THING i wanted to focus on here
today heaven took a home run and hell is watching fearfully from below
todays the day when you wake up dreading its happening
but before panic manage to clear the delusion in your eyes
you find yourself smiling proudly at the 14-page essay-ish product like a mother gazing at her newborn babe
wondering why when how did all this happen
as the pens went down my freshman year tucked itself happily away under the forever incomprehensible ordinances the Solle v Butcher the Great Peace the Krell v Henry the Herne Bay v Hutton
i never imagined contract could one day top my fav-courses list
NEVER. but it did.
so never judge life and anything in it by intuition
u may always end up holding on to the very thing you hate
or are we just addicted to torment

...and it all goes back to those marni clogs as they cling on a little-too-hard to my flesh screaming TAKE ME HOME
yet left me all starstuck and so flyy

...this time i stepped down (amazing). said a little chau to the last red kiss that left burning on me ankles and walked away lightly happily with candy pink repetto

...todays the day when we're all just too sick of heartaches headaches
...todays the day when we just want to skip lightly along
and return to the beginning
when we can still laugh like its forever without vogue embarassment marnis pride

chau to vanity. all we need is a way back into LOVE
chau

Thou art to me a delicious torment.

woke up at 3 and and there's nth in my head
then the throbbing and yawning hit so foreseeably
subconsciously, my hands ruffled though the highlighters and yellow sheets the unread notes
so i scrabbled thought highlighted read non-stop for another hour
prided myself with 4 full yellow sheets of notes on remedies.
then the frustration hit when the pile of unread notes still stood. undefeated.
remedies down. mistake misrep duress undue influence to go??
too much for a girl who woke up for contract at 3
flopped down for a raison cookie (or maybe 3..or more)
twitted
facebook-ed
blogg-ed
until i satisfied meself that revenge on contract had been taken
u can take away my sleep and happy dreams yes
but no not my appetite and my words
yet am confused whether its the fear of not knowing answers to contract questions
or the fear of letting the past week go to waste
or both
or maybe its just the yellow notes flashing "GUILT" before me eyes
that made me sulkily return to the highlighters and speed scanning

one hour left.
chau

as for the title... i will leave it to THE quotes

yeah they were all yellow




ARGHHHH

Lead me not into temptation. I can find the way myself

hmm,, today is not a good new-post day.
so apparently i was allured to the NEW POST button without anything interesting enuf inducing me to do so.
how interesting can a day with contract be anyways
the most writable thing i can account for
takes me back to the afternoon when i dreamt away with colbie caillat's the little things lullabying in the background. the humidity found its way in again and i woke up feeling like my head's pregnant
so i sat vis-a-vis with the huge mindy and burrows and (thankfully) my dearest computer, offering me a handy escape into THE RIGHT WORLD where i'll foreseeably twitter blog facebook away happily-and-ever-after
so for 5 hrs straight i was false imprisoned with contract trying to see eye to eye with the uncomprehendable
tbh...i am actually quite satisfied with my progress. so far expect the fact that i downed too much maraconi as my attention was diverted to the MISSION IMPOSSIBLE
(usually it doesn't happen. usually i payso much attention to my food these days i notice the slightest lack of salt here and a little too much soba there)
and did i mention t'was the first post i made during my bathmoments?
its not a good attempt. bubbles kept blocking my vision like they want me to focus on the feeling and not the typing.
and i'll surrender to the fluffy mashmallows for now,
chau

Are you living it right?

the ahmazing day began with an egg white omlette wrapped round avocado and cheese
followed by a little flirting with baby pink manicure and matte blue pedi
orgasming with oh-i-die foot treatment
sashimi salad and a few more pieces of sushi giving THE BEST after-cuddle
then diving right into roundtwo as we check out the new BABY

awwww if today could just freeze itself
and replay and replay i would be living in heaven.
no.
i'd like to add a little movie here and bath there and a little more shoehunting everywhere
so its not THE PERFECT day. but defo an almost-perfect one.

sorry for the nonsense up there but i'd very much like to remember the day when i was supposed to be grounded with contract
but ended up checking everything in the lust list
except contract.
(it doesnt make sense i know since contract never did and never can make itself to the lust list)
i'm now building another list
a to-meet list of people. have been flirting with my pc for too long i think its getting tired of me given that its mind started to wander and its efficiency falling to minimal.
they say technology is the new weapon.
i say they are the most egoistic creature the earth has ever come across

i gotta feeling that today shd be contract-free
what u say. a nap? a nap should defo clear nonsense out of my head
and bring back a super-efficient contract-flipping chau.
where's the button you press to change tobie maguire into spiderman
the secret basement where tony stark became ironman
tell me how can i become contractwoman
for the sake of saving the world from frustration mistake unconscionably
and do some paper-work justice

(yawn)
lets just hope the nap does it magic.
chau