when one is growing up,
the soul takes up more space than the body needs
it hangs on to every praise, every love, every smile and twinkle in the eye
to circumvent the negativities of daily comings
today i felt like a baby blue who needs to throw her tantrum
who will be understanding enough not to judge?
in the battle field of emotions
you either hurt or be hurt
i wish he was here to teach me how
hes my green light
someone i wish to run to and never turn around
i wish not to be blinded by the sun
but be bathed in the warmth of moonlight
the only one that guides me home
oh and did i tell you
home might not be back
i am in search of mine in the far away land of love
6.09.2013
2.17.2013
...I know this is love
Sometimes seeing him smile
Melts my worries. His baby angelic smile is always hidden
behind his ego
With me, he is the 9 year old boy he always wish to remember
He said pauline looked like peter pan today
I hope she can bring us back to the days when we never have
to grow up
He told me a lot of things, taught me a lot of ways of
thinking
He said life is hard, but our job is to make it easier for
ourselves
He said its all about figuring out how it works
The mechanism of life, that is the key to happiness
Being content is a side effect of understanding
Be it love, life or lament
He told me things I wanted to hear and those I don't
He drew me a painting, taught me to be strong
He told me to follow my dreams, not in a airy lighthearted
way
But concretely, to fly away with him, to be near him, to
build our little community of heaven together
He told me to write a letter of appreciation to my mother
Never to forget to tell her how amazing a mother she is
He told me to have to visit my parents in Hong Kong at least
once every year
He said other than your family, you are alone in this world
How much value are
words worth?
But when I look into his eyes
I know its love.
12.27.2012
never too much love
if i am too tiny to embrace your sorrows
let my eyes hug your soul
this christmas we filled it with smiles and laughter
but why even if thoughts are stubborn time is short
let me not be greedy, but shelter all the good
memories are chosen, life is to learn
so i learn to remember what he said to me
"theres never too much love"
let my eyes hug your soul
this christmas we filled it with smiles and laughter
but why even if thoughts are stubborn time is short
let me not be greedy, but shelter all the good
memories are chosen, life is to learn
so i learn to remember what he said to me
"theres never too much love"
12.20.2012
forget me not
Maybe I kept myself really busy with life
So I can stop thinking about the things that
pierce my heart
Who doesn't get hurt anyways
Who does the earth stop spinning for
Until I tried to draw the bear
The talks about how I didn’t care
I realize I took it a little too far
A little too seriously
And it killed us
Just because you cared too much
And now,
He stayed the same, I changed my lifestyle
I need to be safe and sound
But you are walking above the ground
When someday we can both find a new
personality
So that the love doesn’t get lost in
translation
We can fall back into the stars
And try
10.27.2012
Can you hear me?
i was singing until i realise i had to lower down to a whisper
because he always said I was too loud
then I realise again
that he probably couldn't really hear me at all now
maybe he would have wanted me to shout
but I decide to sing
I hope
If I sing beautifully enough
it would soften his worn out heart
p.s. today I asked my brother what his favourite colour is, he said it's red.
I hope he doesn't hurt too many hearts when he grow up
because he always said I was too loud
then I realise again
that he probably couldn't really hear me at all now
maybe he would have wanted me to shout
but I decide to sing
I hope
If I sing beautifully enough
it would soften his worn out heart
p.s. today I asked my brother what his favourite colour is, he said it's red.
I hope he doesn't hurt too many hearts when he grow up
I am wonderstuck to have met you
we walked, we stopped, its closed
he looked sad, i tried to make him smile, he is determined to find his own way
we started to walk again, i told him silently that i don't care where we were when i'm with him
we stopped, in front of a familiar place
we sat, down and I saw the old me
with the old him on the other side of the table
it felt like yesterday
when nothing but him matters the world to me
and now we are sitting here on the other side
he told me that the beef yakitori taste like heaven
I smiled
I wish I can let him know
how glad I was on the other side with him
when I started to explain, the memories that hurt
he started to laugh, and told me about the pork neck salad he had at home
which is way worse than the pork neck asparagus yakitori we had
I wanted him to let me know
how much love it takes
to make a wounded girl smile
as if yesterday did not happen
thankyou
10.20.2012
I am always here, where your heart lies
i met a man
who told me things i dont know
and things i wanted to find out
he made me reconsider, when it took me 3 years to learn to stop where the mind starts to wander
he made me feel safe
to believe that it can be better
and that there are always more than one route that leads to the same goal
sometimes I wish I can wipe the tiredness from his eyes
what has he seen that I haven't?
how can he believe in what I don't?
he loved me in a way that made me stronger
I learned to walk home in the dark, fearless
because he is the only one who took me home
made me feel safe and sound
he made me smile to myself at times when I am awake
he made me feel that there is more to each day, than just longing for a better tomorrow
I wanted to let him know
I couldn't let go
he said he can forget the pain of work when he enjoys our presence
I hope I can make his world better
with love
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